in the present has been able to see or meet Lord
Christ or Prophet
Mohammed in person... Ramakrishna
Paramhansa or Ramana Maharshi! What it means to be God Realized ...
Read more about story of my personal experience How
I Realized God
Born in a small Hamlet situated
near the Ganges canal on the out skirts of Roorkee town in the state of Uttar
Pradesh (India), Khanjarpur village is reminiscent of those glorious days when
Hinduism in India was at its best. A care free Life supported by loving parents
was still a privilege for the poor who could not or aim for something better or
higher in Life!
village Life nurtured in me a sense of belonging ... An inherent feeling that
someday I will have to return what I gained from my parents and Mother Earth.
The pride I felt on being an Indian, a true Hindu after listening to the various
stories of the pre-independence era inculcated in me a feeling of nationalism.
If I were to search for the real values of Life later in my Life then I had to
be a truthful person from the beginning itself, was a feeling which existed with
me at every stage of Life. In my dreams I used to seat myself on the throne of
King Vikramaditya and ask myself of the impurities which remained in me. This
process did wonders and since my birth all misgivings I had indulged in came to
my notice one by one be they small or big.
I had eaten some sweets unknown to all or I had spoken various lies on different
occasions to gratify my wanton desires, all stood before me as if I was a living
testimony to them. I prayed to God to be Forgiven for all deeds committed knowingly
or unknowingly in this or earlier lives. I noticed as days passed by that my conscience
was getting more and more lighter ... the purity for which I had inherently longed
was becoming a part of my childhood Life. What a noble experience it was!
Father worked in a governed department, a kilometer away from our house. Watching
him go on a bicycle made me think that I had to work hard if I were to get a bicycle
ever in my Life (How will I learn to ride the bicycle was the biggest question
which kept ringing in my ears for years together).
My Mother tongue was Hindi in which I was slightly fluent from the beginning
but to think of learning English was beyond my comprehension. I never even dreamt
of learning English ever. I had doubts whether one born in a village was entitled
to learn English! How happy I was when I declared to my mom that if I ever learn
ABCD in my Life then I shall distribute sweets to the whole village.
when I was around six years of age and had a inherent feeling that someday my
persistence of learning the basics of English would pay off. How optimistic I
was even as a child, perhaps result of my earlier manifestations! You had to have
a seed of a mango plant if you want to reap mangos at a later date. The Atman
(soul within me) which was to later manifest in Life seemed to guide me, a Grace
of God which is available only to the privileged few.
did to me what I failed to do later in my Life for my own children ... my two
beloved daughters. I know for absolute certain that God has in store for me much
more than what I or my family would need in their Lifetime but the looming clouds
of ignorance makes it extremely difficult for one to see the truth in its veiled
I went to three-four Hindi medium schools before I got admitted to an
English medium school. It was an irony of fate that Roorkee town was going to
have a newly built English medium school Christened "St. Gabriel's Academy" in
the precincts of the Army setup at Roorkee, the famous "Bengal Engineering and
Sappers group (popularly known as BEG). Run by the Christian missionaries this
school turned out to be a boon for all the residents of Roorkee. St. Gabriel's
Academy was meant for boys and it had a counterpart for girls at a different location
namely "St. Ann's convent".
It was in the third year of running, when my Father
decided to get me admitted to this school. The principal brother Julian was a
true academician. When he came to know of my Hindi background he refused admission.
By that time I had not even seen the school premises but my Elder brother was
already studying in the school having taken admission a year before. He also was
from a Hindi medium background but must have fared well in the test and interview.
I had great regards for my brother as he had the knowledge of ABCD.
Father was an intelligent person. He probably read the mind of the principal and
coaxed me to train well before I went to the school for the test. I was made to
learn the difference between a chair and a table. Must have been more than a hundred
times before I reluctantly submitted to my parents that I would fare well in the
test (How deeply scared I was within cannot be explained in words but even at
that young age of my Life I had extreme Faith in God and somehow felt that all
would go well in the end).
At the time of the test inspite of all prompting
I had to call a chair a table and a table a chair. My Father told the principal
that if asked in Hindi I would say it right but being an English medium school
he was not prone to any reason. Somehow the principal agreed to give me a trial
for about seven days and if I failed then I would be discontinued.
me, the tests in Hindi got me nine and half out of 10 and the Hindi teacher took
me to the principal along with the results and requested the principal to extend
the time limit. On learning that I knew my tables up to 20 thoroughly but in Hindi
whereas none in the class went beyond 13 was a matter of consolation for the principal.
He knew that to solve a problem in mathematics it was immaterial whether one knew
the tables in Hindi or English, what mattered was if the results arrived at were
correct or not. Thereafter, it was no looking back.
I did try hard in the beginning
but my inherent tendencies to seek God resulted in my getting poor grades since
9th class onwards. From sixth class onwards I was able to come second in class
and maintained this position till 8th standard. In the first tests in my ninth
class I scored zero in two subjects. My class teacher was flabbergasted and unable
to contain herself took me to the earlier class teacher of my sixth class. Inspite
of the best promptings I could not disclose to the teachers the cause of my getting
below average grades.
I had switched over from mugging and cramming my lessons
to understanding the basic principles and laws of every subject. Someone inherently
was prompting me to follow the new path irrespective of whether or not I got good
marks in various objects. This was perhaps the most difficult and the first decision
ever made by me as a child without even consulting my parents or my teachers.
I had to gain or loose but how was not very clear to me. Somehow I felt I would
only gain and there was nothing to loose.
One thing was very clear to me that
getting marks did not matter much. What mattered was the knowledge gained. A source
so potential in nature that I may draw knowledge from it as and when I desired.
I felt that if I continued cramming my lessons I may be considered intelligent
in that particular class but what of the future when I shall have fully forgotten
what I had learnt earlier.
I got caned for the zero marking. Two canes
per subject from the principal who earlier appreciated my coming second in the
class. Before the whole class he admonished me and advised me to study hard and
maintain the old record. Again, I could not spell out the reason for such low
marks. I remember taking a solemn oath within my conscience that I really would
try harder and never betray the Faith the principal had expressed in me nor get
belittled in front of the whole class ever.
The marks of the cane remained
on my hand for full seven days. It also pained reminding me that there was some
virtue hidden in the new path shown by God. This was perhaps the most important
dictate of God I had in my pre-college days. To obey or not to obey was as per
my discretion which I left it on to God to take care.
This whole episode further
strengthened my belief that there is a God and if one were to search for it sincerely,
honestly and truthfully then he shall show himself. I was right in my presumption.
I also became truthfully aware of the small inner voice which prompts us on the
right path always.
The drag in my studies showed up when I got a compartment
in a subject in the board examinations of 11 th standard. Inherently I knew I
would clear the same without any hassles but for my parents it was a crucial test
of time. Having appeared for the mathematics examination I knew I was going to
fail but along with it followed a chain of thinking supported by God that I would
definitely clear the same in my second attempt.
The fact that I would fail
in mathematics was not disclosed to anybody and when the results poured in, I
could see the consternation on the face of my parents trying to find out ways
and means to disclose the results to a boy who was celebrating his holidays 3000
kms away from home at Cochin where my Father had taken up a project. First time
in my Life I was to travel alone the full distance to Delhi by train. I felt sorry
for my parents and assured them that I would clear the paper without much difficulty.
They were relieved to know that I knew beforehand I would fail and was not shocked
on seeing the results.
lad in search of God, how he completed 12th standard, prepared for the engineering
competition and cleared it with flying colors is un-imaginable. And here I was
admitted as a student of civil engineering and that to in the famous University
of Roorkee (formerly known as Thomason college of engineering) which stood by
its name in the field of civil engineering world-wide.
To be admitted to a
local university was a boon for my parents, probably they could not have afforded
my studies out of the town. The invincible hand of God was there to help me all
the time. Even while doing my engineering I was deeply in search of God. Somehow
somewhere I had to come face-to-face to him. There was no other alternative. I
had burnt all my bridges.
1993, ever since I gained Self Realization (Enlightenment):
I have dedicated
myself in service of mankind. Compelled to leave a thriving business & an earning
sufficient for one to live comfortably & happily in a Cosmopolitan Town like Delhi,
I am trying to spread message of good will to the World community through the
Having reached the end part of my Cosmic career I was full of cheer
as one would be on seeing a full bloomed rose. But here I was the rose myself
and there was no way to become a bud once more. All manifestations had ended.
I had come out of the cyclic chain of Life and Death never to be born again as
a Human or any other being.
am able to -
Understand the hidden truths of all Scriptures of all Religions
of the World.
Talk to 'God the Creator' every moment of my Life.
that all living beings have emanated from the same source 'the Brahman'.
Gita and Upanishads" as clear as abc
Know what are dreams?
Where does one go after death?
What is hell and heaven?
How a layman
can conquer his desires!
How can one by controlling his Karma take absolute
control of his destiny & reach any bracket of his Life (from a laborer to an Emperor).
Know the identity of true self "the I within".
Truth behind an atman
soul manifesting a body.
The ultimate truth governing the physical World.
Being my last sojourn on Mother Earth, I have to impart the Cosmic knowledge
to those who truly seek the "wisdom of the East".
No further Life after
death of this body ... To Emancipate forever from the cycle
of birth and death.. What can be more noble for atman the soul within.
One can within this Life attain Salvation ... Become a living Mahavira, Buddha
or Jesus Christ!
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the present life.
Kumar "Atma Jnani"
Vijay Kumar... The Man who Realized
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